It’s been a while since I’ve written, which is not the same as posting, as a few of my recent posts have been drafts that have been given a bit of a spit and polish.
It’s not because I’ve run out of things to say, but because I am finding it hard to find the time to put my thoughts into words. Part of this post was written at a local indoor play centre while the kids ran amok. It’s not the most inspiring of places, but it was better than trying to sit down at the PC and try to write with two children going stir crazy at home. And when I am at home, there are people competing for PC time and time with mum, and the usual domestic stuff that happens over the weekend.
I guess this is what happens when you get a new job and have to discover a new routine!
I now have a full-time job, based in Ballarat, and it’s close enough to home that I can walk. My commute of over 90 minutes involving car, and two train trips each way has been reduced to a 7 Minute walk, 5 if I really hurry. I can even go home at lunchtime!
My evenings are now spent helping Mr BG with dinner, listening to Miss BG read- pretty much the same as before, but it’s a lot more leisurely, everyone is less tired and generally happier. I have lost my plotting/reading/dreaming time, but I have gained more time with my family and that is good.
It has been scary starting a new job after 10 years and I will admit it has not been easy. It’s a job that entails more technical aspects than what I am used to, it’s in a sector in which I have never worked and the organisation is spread across 6 sites and three states. I am WAY out of my comfort zone, and there has been many a night over the last couple of weeks that I have woken up, my mind reeling with stuff.
I am also terrified of stuffing up and failing, and sometimes this fear can be quite paralyzing. I just have to remember
- they employed me, so they clearly saw something
- I just have to take a step and then another step and then another…
- I have some great work colleagues that I can call if I need to
Some of the successes/highlights over the last 4 weeks
- I faced a fear of stuffing up an update to an application
- I went up to Sydney to meet my boss and my staff member
- I have an office with a view and I have my name on the door!